How I'm feeling:
Shocked! It's... A BOY?????
At my 16 week appointment, we encouraged the doctor to take a peek at the baby and write the gender down in an envelope so we could have a gender reveal with our families on Mother's Day. I was meeting with a midwife who has been in the industry for quite a few years, and while she did give us a disclaimer that she wasn't an ultrasound technician, I figured that she had been in the business long enough to have a pretty solid guess as to gender. My husband and I were excited to see pink confetti come from the balloon we popped on Mother's Day surrounded by our family.
Over the last month we have imagined our lives with a little girl, gaining more and more excitement about who she would be. I watched my husband melt a little more each time he saw a baby girl at the grocery store and imagined himself cuddling our own little princess.
We went in for our 20 week ultrasound this last week. This is normally where gender is revealed, as an ultrasound technician takes detailed pictures of your baby and their anatomy so that a doctor can look for any possible abnormalities or issues. When the doctor asked us if we knew what we were having, we told her the story about our midwife giving us the news the prior month. She silently nodded and continued taking pictures and measurements for about 20 minutes until she finally asked, “So do you want me to confirm the gender for you?” After we said yes, she said “Well, you have a girl... with a very large penis!” The shock on my husband's face was priceless. Good thing we hadn't bought any expensive girl items yet!
It has been weird adjusting to the idea that we are having a boy and not a girl. In a way we are grieving for the little girl we thought we were going to meet that now we won't; but also the excitement of getting to know this new little boy who has been with me all along. Who knew that the newest member of the Total Woman family was actually a Total Man!
My fitness this week:
As I continue to do slow motion training with Theresa, I have gradually begun to feel my energy returning. While I am still absolutely exhausted at the end of the work day, I can walk up and down steps with less exertion than I had been feeling before. I am keeping down more food, and the definition that is beginning to return to my arms is giving me the motivation I need to keep up with my exercise. I have been speaking with the personal trainers at Torrance to see what kind of training options they feel comfortable giving me, and I am excited to switch it up soon!
My beauty this week:
My beauty this week was not so much about products or routine, but finding my beauty in this new, foreign body. I took my baby bump to the beach for the first time. Putting my baby body into a swimsuit was scarier than I ever thought it would be! Just when I was reaching for a cover-up, my husband said the words “Look at your cute little baby belly!” His excitement gave me the courage to bare my bump proudly.
The hardest thing for me these days is doing my hair or putting on makeup, but every time I do it makes me feel so great in my new skin. If you are pregnant and feeling less than fabulous, I highly encourage you to take a few minutes to take care of yourself; it can make a world of difference in your attitude and demeanor. When I'm nauseated and exhausted, reaching for the flat iron is the last thing I want to do, but I never regret taking just a few moments to pamper myself. You are growing an entire human being after all! Pinterest and Instagram are great resources for quick tutorials and ideas for those in a time crunch. The other positive aspect to maintaining my beauty regimen is that I am excited to document my entire pregnancy and every milestone, and it makes taking my pictures much easier when I’m happy with the way I look.
Pregnancy is beautiful, even when it's ugly LOL! Wear it proudly! Just remember, no matter how ugly you may feel, there is someone out there who is wishing with all their heart that they could be experiencing what you are going through. Pregnancy is not a gift given to all, and I'm so grateful that I get to experience every beautiful, sickening, painful, nauseated minute!
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